December 22^nd, 2008.

HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY!

People say we need to have purpose, whether it is short-term or long-term. You know? What is interesting for me is I have listed my resolution for 2009! Woo-hoo, clap for me. Thank you thank you. I just can’t wait for 200 and start doing things right,… and do the right things.

1. By the end of the year 2009, I must be able to cook at least 100 moderate-high level recipes (boiled egg, scrambled eggs, and stuff are not included!)

2. Make my parents happy <3

3. And also by the end of the year 2009, 100 books should be finished. Novels, literature, reference, diet, plants, discoveries, etc.

4. I have to wear braces!

5. Work part-time at Starbucks.. Alright, the place is optional but I think I need to work

6. Make friends closer than before

7. No failed course

8. Assigned to an Agency, have a runway and photoshoot… This sounds a bit crazy but at least this is one of those bunch activities that I want to do BEFORE I DIE.

9. Have a clearer and brighter skin.

10. Get shaped

11. English proficiency improved by the end of 2009

12. Boyfriend is optional… I list it in the very last number of my resolution, because it is not my top priority

Reviewing on my 2008 resolution, these are my resolutions. I did not write a lot about what I would like to achieve, so these are the achieved and unachieved:

1. Nice backs [achieved]

2. Nice thighs [unachieved, getting worse anyway]

3. Clear skin, pimple free [achieved, at least]

Well I think those are the only resolution that I accidentally wrote on a my agenda when it was asked to write. So I made up some things randomly.

Happy Xmas and New Year everyone!

Plugs:

Basically it was also my fault that I have not prepared for the task really really well.

I know a leader-type girl and I know what she is thinking towards workgroup, and she really concerns about every task given. Preparing it from a long ago, supporting group members, creating meetings, having full of creativity, and have a good time management. I should learn more from her then.

Today is not my day.
Our day.

The LcS lecturer chose us randomly and we knew exactly we were not ready. Our grade decreases by 10 points. Argh.

My friends kept telling me to go in front of the class and present it, I knew it was not a good option to get a good grade for now even though without minus ten points. I explained them that if we did the presentation today which we were not ready yet, we would get fair good grade – or even bad grade. The other better option is doing the presentation for next week. Be better. Be the best. Be prepared. Be ready.

I am so sorry sisters. I cannot do well.

Perhaps there is something behind our presence in the class and the lucky hand of Mrs. Rini has that chooses us to be the first..

Plugs: Zeynep • mallika •

In the middle of city hectic of studying and working, I got this homework from my lovely friend, Rani. She is very understanding and fun, and also responsible of her job. Thank you for tagging me, I am soo feel loved <3

The homework do not have to do with making presentation or workgroup projects just like in college life. A simple homework to get to know of yourself, either from your point of view or people’s point of view. 10 Things about yourself:
I’ll start with questions. And I try my best, ma’am!
1. What’s your name, my lady?
I am Irene. Irene Renaldy. A Chinese-born 18-year lass. Indonesian people often call me as ee-renn instead of eye-rene. It is quite difficult to recognize my name sometimes when it comes to the spelling since they know my name’s pronunciation as eye-reen. My close friends often call me as simple as a-b-c. It is Ai. A name consists of 2 letters but has a deep meaning. In Chinese the word Ai refers to Love. And when people call me Ai, they are just like acting that they call their own sweetheart. “Hey, Ai! Hey, Love!” =]

2. I love music
Before 2006, I knew nothing about music. All I knew was just all the everlasting stupid slow love songs. Since I was stumbled down in Radio world, I am forced to keep updated either by the world/national/celebrity/music news or various kinds of music: the past, the present, and the hottest. That raises up a new soul in me. I love the beats when it goes to my heartbeat, the rhythm, the voice, the dance, the spirit. I start to love until now. And still, music never dies.

3. Fight for existence
I am struggling for 16 years for me to accept myself the way I am. It is hard to love ourselves when something you think do not feel right in yourself. I think myself so bad. I keep fighting for my existence in social world. And a numerous of ‘Why’ questions are rising each day I live. Why can’t I socialize? Why people don’t want to talk to me? Why can’t I make people laugh? Why can’t I make people feel comfortable around me? Why can’t I adapt myself easily in a new environment?
But finally, the last 2 years, I found myself that there is nothing wrong with me. This is just another personality that human beings do have in themselves. Unique. Different. Like no other.
4. Multiple Intelligence
I am more into intrapersonal intelligence rather than interpersonal intelligence. I know what I feel and think, I know why I feel and think that way, I know what I need, I know what I want to do. I know when I want to socialize. I know when I want to be with myself. I keep both balance. And I enjoy myself very much.

5. A Good Communicator
After talking about my ego and individualism, I am also quite a good communicator.
I make friends easily. I can talk in front of people with confidence. I can do something that people will not think that I will do that thing, [such as doing extreme Metal Dance for Talent show in Leadership In-house Training 2008] But those only apply when my sanguine personality on the top of my melancholy personality.Which means, I have two opposite personalities. People who own this kind of personalities, have difficulties to face the world if they have not understood of what and why they are. Yes, it is hard.
…continue reading the entry
called Homework: 10 Things About Yourself

Plugs:

“When I got on my way to MYC Lounge North Meeting Room at 4.35PM, I found Hansen and his friend were sitting down on a 4-couched table. The Journalistic Student Activity would not work if there were only 4 members in it. Ha-ha!
The meeting lasted 2 hours with chatting, talking, sharing, lots of girls stuff included. Hansen is my senior colleague, such an active and dedicated guy to campus. Has so many connection and linkages, know a lot of people.
Once my friend shared, she talked about her conversation with her brother. Her brother asked: “What are you looking for in a university?”. She answered, “Studying to get smarter and smarter.” And her brother replied, “silly dumb girl,” her brother continued, “the thing you are looking for in a college is to build a LOT of relationship with people, make a LOT of friends. You’ll know the advantage really soon.”
Hansen commented, “Obviously that is true. Make a lot of friends…” and he started to share his business deal experience with friends: from clothes buying and selling, multilevel marketing, sea trading / Black Market, until illegal drugs distribution…oh, he was not doing it, luckily.
Then I started to think.
No, I have started to think since the first day my feet stepped on Pelita Harapan University.
Continued tomorrow. I think I need some sleep right now. It’s 11:14 PM. Cannot think of anything. Got headache.argh.
Continued in October 31th, 2008.
“I should make a lot of friends”
But in reality, it is not that easy as said. A lot of friends or few of close friends? When the answer is a lot of friends, you’ll get puzzled. People from ‘group 1’ will hang out together and you belong to ‘group 2’, if you still keep your principle as “I should make a lot of friends” you need to divide your time for both groups, but that results for friends, not close friends. Because having close friends is hard to do, and you need to sacrifice quite a lot of time together.
So.. what should we do? Acting like a fool just like we want to know people for the whole campus to make a LOT of friends?

I have heard a long long ago when I still in web-designing world. Some webmistress stated this in her affiliation application requirement:

“Quality over quantity. What does it mean when you make a lot of bad layouts when there is no one good?”

I know the answer. And you should know.

Plugs:

Geez,

I did stupid things. I broke up my boyfriend last saturday and I regretted it so much..

Argh,

The most beautiful thing in this life is to love someone, even the one that you love doesnt love you back..

I have a poem.. it’s written in Indonesia.. It’s nice..

permen rasa rasa manis
manis rasa rasa permen
melingkar-lingkar ku berlari
di warnamu putih ini
temui titik yang termanis

permenku
kuterjatuh di lingkaranmu krn kelalaianku
kubangkit lagi, kubertahan lagi. lagi
tetapi kutetap jatuh
jatuh jauh dari lingkarmu
memisahkan lingkar merahku dari lingkar putihmu

rasa sakit sakit kurasa
rasa sakit sakit kita rasa
mengiris kelamnya
merahku jadi gelap
putihmu jadi gelap

tanganmu tak terulur untukku
kugagal menggapai hatimu

maafkan aku merahku
kuteriak dan kumenangis
tiap malam
masih adakah harapan yang tersisa

manis rasa rasa harapan
menikmati bersama rasa baru
menyatukan kembali merah putih itu

Plugs: Jenn • Cindy •